I just got back from the River today and checked my emails and was glad to hear from you since Mary called me last night about your situation. I know mom tried your house today but I called her and told her you went to work. Why did you go to work today? You should of stayed home. What did Kaiser tell you? Did they give you any medicine to relieve the anxiety attacks. John, it seems to me you should rent a cabin out in the country and get some good books and just take care of yourself. I know that mom is always a constant worry in the back of our heads. It's always there - I know that and I also know it is affecting us all. Why did Sheila break down in tears at work? Why is Mary falling down the stairs? Why is Kathy afraid to call Mom and calls me to see how mom is? I do want you to know this. Though you think Mary is hard I know she called Kaiser several times last night asking about you and also this morning. She felt you had no family there and shouldn't be alone. (email from angela to john, july 24, 2007)